Hi and welcome to Aspiring To Be! I’m Hayley and I decided to start this blog because I wanted a place to write about my dreams and aspirations. I’m going through a few changes in my life right now. I’m a nanny and recently left a job that had me feeling stressed, disrespected and worthless. After I’d quit, I sat down with a notebook, wrote “What do I want?” in the middle and started brainstorming. Once I’d written down everything I could think of, I took another look at it and 3 things jumped out at me:
- To be happy
- To start reading and writing again
- To feel like I’m achieving something
Number 3 felt particularly painful. I had worked for this family for almost a year and what had I achieved? I had worked myself miserable trying to get their approval, their thanks, their respect but it was never going to happen. No use dwelling on that now. It feels like I lost a part of myself over the last year and its time to get it back! Before that job pretty much took over my life, I enjoyed blogging and ticking things off my bucket list. I blogged at Calm Kitchen about my plan to use healthy eating and nutrition to help me control my anxiety. I’m pleased to say it worked and I can now handle my anxiety without meds. Its something that will probably always be a part of me but I won’t let it define me any more. I am so much more than a medical condition and that is why I started this blog, its a fresh start. Right now I don’t know exactly what I’m aspiring to be but I’ll work that out along the way. All I know is I need to change things up.
This is why I’m looking into the idea of leaving home to be a live-in nanny. I read something once that said you can’t grow as a person until you leave your comfort zone and I’ve found that to be true. Lately I’ve been stuck in a rut and to keep growing as a person I feel that I need to make a big change. Yes its scary but I know that if I don’t do it now, I never will and then I’ll always wonder “what if?”.
I have a lot of interests that I want to explore, as well as finding a job I will be happy in. Future blog posts may include:
- Bucket lists
- Capsule wardrobes (I’m a bit obsessed with this right now!)
- Facing fears
- Healthy eating
- Travelling (I’m going to Norway in 2 weeks!)
- Journalling and drawing zentangles (I’ll explain in a later post)
- Anything else that inspires me!
What are you aspiring to be right now? Do you have a clear picture or, like me, are you working it out as you go along? Let me know in the comments below =)