Aspiring to be… What exactly?

Hi and welcome to Aspiring To Be! I’m Hayley and I decided to start this blog because I wanted a place to write about my dreams and aspirations. I’m going through a few changes in my life right now. I’m a nanny and recently left a job that had me feeling stressed, disrespected and worthless. After I’d quit, I sat down with a notebook, wrote “What do I want?” in the middle and started brainstorming. Once I’d written down everything I could think of, I took another look at it and 3 things jumped out at me:

  1. To be happy
  2. To start reading and writing again
  3. To feel like I’m achieving something

Number 3 felt particularly painful. I had worked for this family for almost a year and what had I achieved? I had worked myself miserable trying to get their approval, their thanks, their respect but it was never going to happen. No use dwelling on that now. It feels like I lost a part of myself over the last year and its time to get it back! Before that job pretty much took over my life, I enjoyed blogging and ticking things off my bucket list. I blogged at Calm Kitchen about my plan to use healthy eating and nutrition to help me control my anxiety. I’m pleased to say it worked and I can now handle my anxiety without meds. Its something that will probably always be a part of me but I won’t let it define me any more. I am so much more than a medical condition and that is why I started this blog, its a fresh start. Right now I don’t know exactly what I’m aspiring to be but I’ll work that out along the way. All I know is I need to change things up.

This is why I’m looking into the idea of leaving home to be a live-in nanny. I read something once that said you can’t grow as a person until you leave your comfort zone and I’ve found that to be true. Lately I’ve been stuck in a rut and to keep growing as a person I feel that I need to make a big change. Yes its scary but I know that if I don’t do it now, I never will and then I’ll always wonder “what if?”.

I have a lot of interests that I want to explore, as well as finding a job I will be happy in. Future blog posts may include:

  • Bucket lists
  • Capsule wardrobes (I’m a bit obsessed with this right now!)
  • Facing fears
  • Healthy eating
  • Travelling (I’m going to Norway in 2 weeks!)
  • Journalling and drawing zentangles (I’ll explain in a later post)
  • Mindfulness
  • Anything else that inspires me!

I hope you’ll join me along the way! Feel free to join me on Twitter and pin with me on Pinterest.

What are you aspiring to be right now? Do you have a clear picture or, like me, are you working it out as you go along? Let me know in the comments below =)

Take care,

Hayley x

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